Last week in my backyard I found this daffodil growing up through a
leaf. I loved the way the four leaf blades were twisted so I went and got my
camera.
I think of spring as the season of emergence, and I love taking
photos of flowers surfacing through the winter’s leaf litter. To me this
symbolizes life conquering any and every obstacle.
For a long time I dreamed of having a life without obstacles. I thought
I’d be happier. I think a lot of people feel this way; that’s why there’s such
an obsession in our culture with celebrities and the rich, and why lotteries
are so popular. Our fantasy is that if we get rich and/or famous then all our
problems will disappear.A cursory glance at any magazine in the grocery store checkout lane
will dispel the myth that the lives of the rich and famous are obstacle-free,
but somehow we still go on believing it will be true in our life when that happy life-transforming day arrives.
Recently I watched a film I made with my husband Arthur just after
we got our first video camera twenty years ago. We went to a number of
different locations in the Atlanta area and asked people, “What, in your
opinion, is the meaning of life?” We got a wide spectrum of answers, and the
film is a fascinating look at the variety of personalities in any given
population.
After watching it this time I thought about how I would answer if
this question were asked of me. “To grow, to expand, to learn,” I thought, “If
I ever stop growing it’s time to die.” Obstacles are crucial to growth. Without
obstacles we would stay stagnant. We wouldn’t have any incentive to change. Obstacles
make life interesting.
I could easily have torn the leaf off of the daffodil and let it
unfurl like the other daffodils around it, but I found myself thinking, “is
that in the daffodil’s best interest?” For all I know, overcoming the challenge
of this leaf could lead to a stronger breed of daffodil that could help
daffodils survive into the future.
As unlikely as that may be, the point is that obstacles and
challenges aren’t things to be dreaded or avoided or hated; they are necessary
ingredients of an interesting life.
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In fact, I believe that the universe exists for the experience of
overcoming obstacles. In The
Game of God, co-written
with Arthur, we proposed that the Unlimited (which most people call God),
created the universe for the experience of limitation. The attributes usually ascribed
to God—omnipotent, omniscient, immortal, omnipresent—can be summarized as
“unlimited.” God has no limit in power, knowledge, time, or space. In other
words, God has no obstacles.
But, we observed, if
God couldn’t have the experience of
limitation then God was limited after all: the inability to experience
limitation would be a limitation!
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We concluded that the universe is
God, experiencing life-and-death as if his-her-its life really depended on it.
The universe is a game created for the fun of experiencing obstacles and
overcoming them.
Many years ago I looked with wonder at some plants growing on a
sheer cliff at Point Lobos, San Francisco, right above the pounding Pacific
Ocean. I had lived in San Francisco for a couple of years and knew the force of
the winter storms that came in off that ocean. How could anything survive in
such a brutal environment? Those plants convinced me that nature would overcome
anything that humans could throw at it. No matter how many obstacles we create,
like climate change, pollution, radiation, etc., nature will triumph over them.
We might not; our civilization might crumble if we push too hard, but nature
will be fine.
[Note: The Game of God was published in 1993. In the intervening years we
have changed our thinking about one aspect of this theory:
We no longer hold God to be a
willful or deliberate creator. One of the most basic aspects of the Supreme
Being must be that it is free from desire. The unlimited, infinite,
all-powerful, all-knowing source of everything would already have every thing.
Where would desire come from? If you have everything what could you want? Where
would the desire to create something come from? The logical conclusion is that
the dualistic universe is an aspect of Supreme Being, not something “created”
by She-He-It. This just deepens the connection between God and us: we’re not a
game God is playing, we are God in
the most meaningful sense.]